I've worried about life, if it's arriving right on time...

As per the advice of a one "Andrew," I have decided to make every attempt to not worry about my future. I make no promises. But I will try.

In that spirit, I went on a photo adventure with Valerie (my roommate) around the SU campus. Some of the most beautiful buildings ever! BUT, that was not the most important part.

I was standing on the hill next to a gorgeous building, one Valerie has nicknamed "Girlfriend" because it was the Women's College, or part of it, I think. Anyway, the sun was shining into my face, and I decided to see how it looked on camera. And it looked like a cross.

This morning at mass, Father Jeffrey said that the greatest act of faith is that "God knows what he is doing with my life." God knows. He sent me that cross because he wanted to make sure I heard. And I did. :)

I have no idea where I'm going, but God brought me here, because HE DOES. One day, I will know why. For now, I just have to be okay with waiting. And doing the best that I can with what I have.

All of this reminded me of two things: first, a Thomas Merton Poem/Prayer -http://koti.mbnet.fi/amoira/merton1.htm

and second, a card that I got, one of the ones with the quotes on it, from Rilke.

"I beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer..."

I need to get this framed or something. I just have to deal with the questions and live my way into their answers. STOP WORRYING RACHEL! I'VE GOT THIS!!! I think that was God's overwhelming message to me today.

Okay, God. I will try.

- Rachel