God Only Knows.

As I write this post, I really should be writing my REU paper. I can see how this blog would be an extremely enticing form of procrastination if I kept it going through the semester. :P I'm very often glad that I write it, though. It helps to get everything out, or at least the important stuff.

Today at mass, I joined up with Josh and Mark and reclaimed my position as singer. I've been lectoring these past few weeks, and probably would have continued happily doing so. Fr. Linus, however, had other plans, and last week he invited me to sing. Thus, here I was. It felt good to be back in what some would call my "normal" place. I had enjoyed reading, but this was a welcome change.

During the homily, Fr. Linus went on about how we can't expect God to just call out to us and say, "Rachel, this is the path you must take." I knew this, certainly, but perhaps I can't always accept it. I don't like living "unsettled." I still don't know, after all this research, what I really should be doing. I like it, and I like the college life. I think I could be both happy and useful if I were to remain in the college setting. But is that where I should be? God only knows. Literally.

And so my discernment continues...

After mass, I was able to meet up with Kara, one of my best friends from home. We got lunch at Panera (though not before getting a bit lost), and the most delicious ice cream from Carvel. It was wonderful to see her for the first time in over a month, and I think a good time was had by all! :)

I shall sign off to you now, and maybe even get some of my paper done!

Currently reading: The Historian. I haven't read any since yesterday.

Listening to: "Whisper" by A Fine Frenzy. "I've stopped trying to find any peace in my mind because it tangles the wires."

- Rachel